It was such a double-edge sword because on one aspect, I wanted to tell her everything. I needed someone to vent to about my problems—someone who could possibly understand my fucking struggles and help me through them, but I couldn’t get past that nagging fear of rejection. I didn’t want my Mistress—I didn’t want Bella—to see me in such a poor light. As this fucking weak and pathetic man who didn’t have the courage to stand up to his family or friends and profess the truth of his love for the BDSM lifestyle…regardless of the consequences and where it led him.
Even though I was her sub and will be until the day that she cast me away, I also needed her to see me as more than that. I wanted her to see me as a man that she could one day, possibly, consider being with.
In the end, I wanted Bella to know me more than anything and that need took precedence over my pride.

Edward Cullen ~ Chapter Twenty One




Chocolate Brown and Leather Whips - The Story



Taking one last deep breath, I bent down on my knees and assumed the position that Angela taught me. My hands were now shaking uncontrollably, and I was thankful to be able to place them on the cold, hard concrete. It kept me steady as I lowered my head and waited for the mistress to make her appearance.
It seemed like forever, and I knew it was more likely like two minutes, but the door finally creaked open. It was such a rush to have only my hearing to decipher what the mistress was doing because I saw nothing, but heard the soft clacking of her heels on the floor.
Breathing heavily now, I stared at the ground, nervous as all hell, and waiting for something-her, me...I didn't know.
It wasn't until I saw the shiny black tips of her boots-that was when I knew it was all real. The moment had finally come. After all the weeks I'd obsessed and basically stalked her, I was finally here with her, and she still had no idea who I really was...
"Good evening, Pig!"

Edward Cullen is a 21 year old man who has the world at his finger tips. He has a great education, money, and plenty of women. The things he feels he's entitled to...but what happens when an innocent meeting with a beautiful, but older Isabella Swan at a coffee shop turns into something he never expected.
Will a hot and assertive woman like Bella, who likes to take control, finally be able to teach a young cocky Edward about life, sex, and women?
Thrust into a world filled with pain, pleasure, and all too consuming desire...Edward soon realizes it's a life he refuses live without.